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Wednesday, April 28, 2004 two down, two more to go....
phew.... i thot today's paper was o..k.. i sure hope it will truly be so.. anw!! i totally dunno wat to do for stupid SM... urgh.. i am soo scared o this paper... dunno why... i stare at the case, it stares back at me.... sigh... why cant i be a super zai person who wld noe how to analyze any case that she sees? why cant i be a super smart person who wld be able to do very well for any paper as long as she studies? i noe why... becos i am whimpering here, instead o studying... haha... i even did a funny quiz..
~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/28/2004 08:57:00 PM.
Saturday, April 24, 2004 hi glob....
today's rather fruitful, so i am glad... i dun wanna flop for the next 3 papers again... can anyone sense my desperation?? it's scary to fail urself.. sigh... anw!! i've juz received news that the case for my Strategic Management paper is posted on edventure.. this is the first time tat i am having a paper w the case given to me!! haha.... so basically, i am at a loss.. dunno wat to do... sick.... i feel like i shld somethin abt it, since it's already posted.. but still.. i've got other things to study for!!! ridiculous.. i hate this.. i guess i shld scan thru it later... urgh... anw!! i was scared by a big black dog yest!!!! as my dear frens shld noe, i am terrified o dogs.. esp big black ones... my god.. i was jogging at 10pm when i saw it.. o all nites, my mom's prediction had to come true.. luckily i had the sense to freeze n then move slowly by it.. i was trying to create the impression that i was nothin but a passing shadow... althou it din harm me in any way, it made my heart pump twice as hard... no wonder i was dead tired when i got home.. =P ok ok.. time to look at the disgustingly-boringly long case... yucks... pls... let me score!!! yawnz..... ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/24/2004 10:23:00 PM.
Thursday, April 22, 2004 hey glob..
today was my first paper n i've proven to be a flop.. as usual... sigh... i came out feeling utterly defeated... wat a dumb paper... or is it dumb me? sigh... haha... i've been sighing nonstop since i came out fr the exam hall... it's time i stop huh.. juz like it's time i stop "resting" to start studying for the other THREE papers that i've not completed... but i think when i'm sad, i'm the biggest!!! so i do things tat my heart tells me to... haha... wat an excuse... sigh... why muz i alwiz be so koked up?! i knew there were 5 qns for the whole paper.. i knew it.. but then, i HAD TO FORGET it... spent so much time for the 1st 2 qns... left w one hour for the last 2, or so i thot... sorry.. it was 3.. got me panicking for a while... sigh.... n stupid julius is irritating me over msn now... -_-" he keeps saying life in biz is soooooo easy... juz hafta look pretty n do power point.. i feel like giving him a hard kick now.. boo him.. super duper boo him.. i noe he is juz crapping la.. n i am juz cursing him in a moment o anger.. but still... since i am the biggest when i am sad and angry, i shall put a curse on him.. i curse julius.. that he will hafta do 20 power points for his projs next sem!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmpf... anw... i will recover from mourning soon.. i alwiz do.. haha.. i juz hope i will haf good news after the next 3 papers... =) jia you bao!!!! jia you frens...... haf fun, shuhui n peijin... ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/22/2004 09:46:00 PM.
Sunday, April 18, 2004 hey glob....
it's a boring saturday... spent studying in wdl lib.. my fave-forced hangout now.. bleah... miss ID sessions on saturdays.... miss kok hui.. miss muilian.. miss my joanne... miss mubarak... miss the piggy sisters (when we r not STRESSED up)... miss the idians.. miss the fun.. miss the laughter... which makes me dread graduating again.. haha.. althou it's in a yr's time.. it's been on my mind.. which is weird, cos i SHLD be concentrating on my books.. sigh... i am so gonna miss everythin abt ID then... when i graduate.. i conclude that i alwiz find reasons to do BETTER things w my time n mind.. haha.. like for now.... even thou i haf nothin particular in mind to write, i insist on writing.. haha.. juz to get away from studying.. aiyo.. cant wait for everythin to be over... ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/18/2004 12:42:00 AM.
Friday, April 16, 2004 hey hey..
i am taking a break again from studying.. haha... i dun really see why i need it anw.. i only did 2 chapters from 11am till now.. 5pm.. wonderful.. absolutely wonderful... in an attempt to actually feel remorseful abt it.... i haf tried recalling wat i juz read... one's on impact o internet on business strategies... the other.... (OH NO!!!! wat's that?!!?1 ) oh.. it's on globalization... phew... (as i tried recalling, i was mumbling furiously to myself and shaking my head.. i think i looked like i was having a fit.. the guy beside me kept throwing concerned looks at me.. haha.. ) n i thot i haf a very very very very very good memory.. sigh... anw.. i had a weird dream last nite.. haha... as i slept in hall 11... i shant reveal the content o the dream.. but still.. *chuckles* ok ok.. time to hit the books again.. funny pple r ga jiaoing me.. MR ang cai is trying to take my pic.. (prince r u reading this!?! haha.. he's showing off his new fon.. boo..) off to a great new start.. xiao huan zi has 4 As!! self-fulfilling prophecy... i hope it comes true.... ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/16/2004 04:49:00 PM.
Thursday, April 15, 2004 yuuuuuhuuuuuu................ i'm back... haha...
sigh.... where else haf i been but in the libraries o singapore... sick.... but at least i feel that i am progressing... slowly, but surely... phew.... even thou my mind's quite focsued on studying now.. it still can't stop thinking abt funny things... i'm thinking.... even if there r no choices in life, as in, there's somethin tt's not gonna happen no matter how hard u think abt it, why do some pple (like a certain miss funny here..) still like to think that they haf a choice? do pple alwiz go for the things tt they cannot get? wat's the catch?? even thou yearning's alwiz a sweeter sensation, i wld like to haf a taste o owning it.. ok.. enuf o wondering, MIND.. time to hit the books.. erm.. once i get off msn.. haha.... tt's why i need a comp in hall.. aiyo... xiao huan zi has 4 As!!!! self fulfilling prophecy.... i hope it works.. ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/15/2004 11:51:00 PM.
Monday, April 12, 2004 i'm disgusting glob...
i'm a disgusting slacker who's slacked her way thru the precious weekend which shld haf been spent studying.. if i am not dozing off at the study table, i am watching tv.. if i am not reading dorky magazines like LIME (?!), i am whining abt the exams.. n my family has learnt the art o "selective hearing".. they ignored my whining.. which made me whine even more.. sigh.. WAT'S WRONG W ME?!?!?!! wat will it take for me to START??? i need to focus... i think i shld use the horrible results o last sem to wake me up.. but i am blocking the thot out.. i dun wanna remind myself o my failure.. who likes to anw? but the seizure is there... i hope i get scared soon.. it's disgusting.. ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/12/2004 09:33:00 AM.
Friday, April 09, 2004 glob...
i am tired n sleepy.. haha.. at 3am in the morn... but i feel emotionally charged after a long dist conversation w my lesly.. why is it that things can't turn out as simple as they can be? why is it that there r times when u juz can't, n shldn't, follow ur guts? oops... i seem to be breaking my "promise" to my darling twin n myself.. to stop dwelling on nonsensical things, that is.. but sometimes u juz can't help it... sigh.. haha.. this leads to the next qns i haf for human in nature.. why r pple so indecisive? they cannot make up their minds to be happy or not.. or is it only me? when i tell myself not to do something, the lingering thot burns in me for i wld neva noe the outcome.. but yet if i do it, there exists the possibility o me getting hurt in the process.. but i guess i wld neva noe which hurts more huh.. bcos i am still on the same plank o wood holding my weight on a bridge. not moving forward, nor risking the danger o falling into the deep deep bottom.. act it's juz a small little thing (on my side) tt's provoking everythin.. dumb.. haha.. so r pple dumb by nature? i suddenly feel like a researcher.. i dunno how to help frens who r troubled.. i want so much to help but i dunno how.. which is weird, bcos i can't even help myself.. i think i shall stop harping on this.. it's irritating me.. wat more the poor readers.. to end this on a happy note.. erm... erm... oh!! i juz realized today after 20 yrs o existence tt chickens can lay eggs wout ehem.. u noe.. w the male chickens.. so they can lay n lay n lay n lay eggs... that are not fertilized!! wow.. haha... i am NOT a bimbo.. it's my science teacher's fault.. ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/09/2004 02:59:00 AM.
Thursday, April 08, 2004 updates on the hall issue..
attempt to borrow a comp fr a fren has failed.. mayb getting my fyp mate to help me... feel silly for thinking abt this when i shld be studying.. haha.. BUT!!! the deadline's the 12th.. or the 15th... sigh.. frustrating.. updates on my life... messy.. i'm gonna declare my inconsistency in life.. i can be very upset abt certain issues but when i communicate it verbally to frens.. i juz made them sound like jokes.. why? the reluctance to reveal my true feelings? to save face? or to appear strong? i'm weird... i am bothered.. by things.. but there's no avenue to release them.. i am juz a thin-skinned, silly, boo boo little gal.. sigh............. but no worries.. i'm no where near the edge of the cliff yet.. =) ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/08/2004 06:50:00 PM.
Monday, April 05, 2004 the newest dilemma facing urs truly..
1. to stay in hall, or NOT... w my lesly.. yes bcos it's prob gonna be fun.. n less taxing.. (i can imagine myself goin back to sleep EVERYTIME after my lesson! cool!) no bcos i dun haf the money n i dun haf a laptop.. (i can imagine myself sulking when i am cut off from the world wout e means o communicating) i shall think this thru.. but then again.. i haf been thinking abt this for the past 2 years.. think lesly wanna strangle me!! haha... i am a boo boo... somehow, it seems more relaxing to be thinking abt this kind o "problem" den anythin else.. =) ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/05/2004 01:05:00 PM.
does peanut butter expire?!?! ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/05/2004 10:19:00 AM.
Sunday, April 04, 2004 i am filled w love for all my frens... for ALL o them, who haf made a difference in my life..
who haf made me see the difference my life wld haf been wout them... i shld smile, becos i haf the ability to love, n most importantly.. i haf PEOPLE to love.. i haf FRIENDS to love... i haf a FAMILY to love.... i haf MYSELF to love..... i am smiling......... ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/04/2004 03:34:00 PM.
Saturday, April 03, 2004 sometimes, the sudden fear o insecurity will juz hit u...
i hope that one day.. i will wake up thinking that i am the luckiest person alive.. tt i haf everythin in the world to be thankful for.. tt i am not as lousy as i think i am.. tt i can be the person who i truly am n everyone will still be able to appreciate me.. why is it that one can fall down deep so quickly? i think i am juz tired.. sleep is the cure?! okie.. i shall go home n sleep.. heh... ps: ( i think some insecurities are juz self-induced... mayb i am trying to feel sorry for myself.. ) ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/03/2004 03:39:00 PM.
yoohoo.....
wondering why i am so energetic at 2.30am in the morn?? cos i juz came back from a jog.. n a trip to knowing my fren better.... =) sharing can be sooo nice...to let someone noe what's goin on in ur life, n to find out abt her life too... n the euphoria is greater when u realize that there r actually a lot more in common than u knew btn the 2 o u.... i haf come to noe o somethin sad as well... it's a fleeting disturbance.... well.. i shan't make myself think abt it... mayb i'll skip SM tmr... haha... i wanna sleep!! i am a naughty gal.... i juz hope i wun fall asleep AGAIN as i am doin proj... my proj mates r hating me... boo~ anw.. i miss lisa.. suddenly.. the feeling is over powering.. i shall call her soon.. when i figure out how to do it... =) may i be a stronger gal.. n a happier one too.. not tt i am unhappy now.. =) ~bao~ caught a falling star on 4/03/2004 02:32:00 AM.
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